Blind Dawn
I stare out into the distance,
Hoping that someday, I’ll get through your resistance.
In the clouds I can see your face,
It reminds me of a happier time, a happier place.
Oh love, how you fall,
Oh love, how you are oblivious to my call.
I try to save you before you disappear,
But to you, my voice is but a whisper in your ear.
Can’t you see how far you’ve gone?
You have completely lost sight of the dawn.
All I can do is continue to hope,
That you’ll finally climb up your disintegrating slope.
For now, I’ll say farewell,
For now, I’ll relinquish your spell.
I’ll stand alone, awaiting your true arrival,
But for now, I cannot view your downward spiral.
Estrange
In a land of disarray,
My voice is gone and there are no words to say.
The clouds are dark and the skies are red,
And on the ground, she lies motionless and dead.
In this land of disarray,
My eyes cannot breakaway,
A simple soul's imminent stray,
A complex heart's unpreventable betray.
The ground is barren, and the lakes are dry.
Every single thing has now gone awry.
The people are dead, their voices are silent.
There are no calm, there are no violent.
Only remains, of those once awake.
And their souls, that are left simply to take.
My love is gone, and my world forever gray,
But only in this land of morbid disarray.
The Death
I wish I could say that I'm okay.
But the memories continue to replay.
A soul, entirely out of place,
With the absence of your beautiful face.
All I want is your love,
Though clearly, it is not the will of those above.
I am afraid, for without you I have no cause,
I cannot live, I am set to pause.
Parish I would, rather than let you go,
However my hands are tied, therefore... it must be so.
Soulless Peace
This world of mine has turned to black,
For now, I have finally turned my back.
Finally I am free of her hold,
Finally now I may embrace the cold.
With my memories, I can survive.
For all happiness will never arrive.
This world of mine has turned to black.
Because finally, a soul I lack.
Sporadic
Nothing more than another fair-weather love.
One only determined by the clouds above.
Time can change and time can shift,
but nothing can change your emotional drift.
With you as fickle as a summer day,
I can only be left in disarray.
I know, it will only continue to rain,
And that all this time will be in vain.
Yet I cannot look away from the tarnished skies,
For it's taken my soul and I cannot avert my eyes...
Schizoid
This life has lost its spark,
And now I'm alone in the dark.
I sit with a crooked smile on my face,
For I've gone madly insane locked all alone in this place.
My mind has lost all control,
and now all I have is my tarnished soul.
Here I sit, and here I'll be,
Insanely hebephrenic for all eternity.
Foolish Paranoia
I am afraid.
For I sense I've been betrayed.
I cannot fathom how distraught I am,
and I feel like a fool whose life is forever damned.
My body hurts from this unorthodox matter,
my brain is dead and lies on the floor splattered.
I feel alone and lost in the night,
The darkness consumes me, and I'm left without a sight.
Sunrise, Sunset,
Grown so bored that I've once again gone insane,
And again I'm the one to blame.
I wish that I could just let her go,
But her love is the only one I truly know.
In reality I will forever be hers,
And It will be out of my control, regardless of whatever occurs.
I know that in my heart we should be as one,
But I'm afraid that our love is like the sun.
Wont you understand?
Here and gone,
Like the sunset and the dawn,
You come and go,
And you'll never really know.
I love you more than you can ever comprehend,
And by now I should know that it wont matter in the end.
I can't stop until you understand,
So please my love, breathe and take my hand.
Darkness
Blind forever,
For my optic nerve has been severed,
I cannot see anyone other than you,
For your face was the last thing I saw before I became so blue.
I'm left without my sight,
However, with you I can see a beautiful light.
I want to lose this pain.
So please, help me see again,
Insomniac
I cannot sleep on this starry night,
For I love you dear, and you've left my sight.
I wish I could explain to you how much I care,
But alas, my words would be to much for you to bare.
I am depressed in this state of sorrow,
And left to ponder the plans of the morrow.
I only hope that you come around,
Because my heart feels empty, and with you my love is found.
Dry Eyes
Here I sit out upon my roof,
Wondering if you care and trying to find proof.
It seems that you change so very fast,
And that I am very much stuck in the past.
I wish these eyes could shed a tear,
For every shred of sadness, self hate, and fear.
It is a shame that my eyes are unable to weep,
For every emotion, I am forced to keep.
Hatred
My soul is mad at this moronic mind,
Even if it is intelligent, sweet, and kind.
Every time I finally advance,
I throw it away and lose my chance.
I am so pissed at this kid,
Damned, by this naïveté I cannot rid.
This person that I love was just here.
But I've messed it up and she's already began to disappear.
Just a Rock
I feel like a stone,
Lost, dead, and all alone.
I can not move, for I have not the will.
So I'll stay here afraid, and forever still.
Without you there is no purpose.
So forevermore, I'll remain a part of this surface.
Grim Day
A birthday is nothing without you,
A dear woman, one which has no idea what to do.
This day has no meaning,
For you're absent, and it is rather demeaning.
With you by my side I feel like a king,
And with you away, I feel like nothing.
Please my love, come back to me,
And the world, I'll have you see.
No party, no people, no cake,
Not one person is welcome, because my heart you did take.
Life cannot be celebrated if you have no soul,
So please, return what you stole.
In my arms you will find peace,
And I promise love, all you troubles will forever cease.
I am here for you, so open your eyes.
If we are together, there will be no need for goodbyes.
Whenever you decide to come back.
The party I assure you, will not lack.
You again will find happiness here,
I promise my love, there is nothing to fear.
So take a seat and stay awhile,
And let me see that beautiful smile.
Maybe then you will realize how I feel,
Maybe then you will realize my love is real.
Finally the lights dim,
No one is there, and the scene is rather grim.
No cups nor plates have been moved out of place,
And there sit's the boy, whose love blew up in his face.
He sits there quietly, with a fixed stare.
He does not tear, nor does he go anywhere.
He just sits in the dark, still waiting for that love.
Even though she long ago flew away, like a dove.
Descent
I fall through the air slowly with a smile.
Plummeting through millions of clouds mile by mile.
The air rushes through my hair at high speeds,
And as I fall, I forget all my wants, hopes, and needs.
With a clear mind I can descend at peace.
But I learn to fly with the birds, planes, and geese.
And With these wings I fly on for days,
Visiting old friends and catchin' some rays.
But then my thoughts suddenly rush back.
And I continue to fall, because wings I now lack.
Absolution
Fear not dear, for I am here.
I'll stay, and wipe away all your tears.
I'll help you along the way,
Regardless of whatever you do or say.
I promise to stand by your side,
I'll be here, even if you leave, run, or hide.
Believe me I know how you feel.
But my love is not yours to steal.
One day we will surely find that place,
One that is filled with fun, happiness, and grace.
Fear not dear, for I am here.
I'll stay, and wipe away all your tears.
Eradication
Leaned against an old tree so calm,
I sit, sifting through the wood chips that lie on my palm.
The grass beside me shines a wonder green,
As I sit and observe, I realize I'm in a picturesque scene.
The clouds that the sky hold shadow phantasmagorically over me,
And into the distance I see the land blend together so beautifully.
Cutting through the tranquil silence the wind carries steel clanking and voices to my ears,
Those of the factories and business that have triumphed over the years.
I leave with a sigh and return in the future,
I see the ground ripped up, changed, and sutured.
Where I leaned. is now an overpriced teen clothing store,
And that old tree, so full of life, was now gone forevermore.
This once untouched environment has now been cleared of all wildlife,
And our mother earth has been carved up by society's knife.
With these factories and stores all our animals and plants have gone extinct,
But big business wont care of what our earth thinks.
These people care not for being green,
However they do enjoy the color, if you know what I mean.
Flawed
You've been hurt, this I can see,
And now you're afraid of what we could be.
I assure you my feelings for you are real,
I only want your love, your heart I promise not to steal.
Believe me dear, I only want what's best.
To make you happy, and give your sadness a perpetual rest.
That beautiful smile deserves to stay.
For all eternity, I never want to see it decay.
Lamia
A bite so tender and sweet.
One that nearly sweeps you off your feet.
With fangs as sharp as the stake you conceal,
So much pain, that you can hardly feel.
Within your eyes burns a flame,
One that is destined to destroy, burn, and maim.
A moment is taken for thought,
And in a flash you’ve pierced my heart with all you’ve got.
I fall to the ground and land at a kneel.
And say that even with death, your heart is mine to steal.
My love is yours, and your soul is mine.
Any path my dear, our hearts will always intertwine.
You collapse too and only cried,
And as the sun rises you lay by my side.
Over the tree tops the sunlight begins to emerge,
And as it shines on us our souls are purged.
A Feint Dream
Looking up I see the sky so dark.
And there, from the amethyst rain clouds fall the amber sparks.
I look down to see the orange grass in between my bare feet.
And realize the ground is cluttered with sugary treats.
I close my eyes and turn around, only to realize I’m all alone…
No friends, no games, no telephones…
Frowning, I look back up and see the sky has changed.
Its become misshapen, demented, and deranged.
I look out to the once beautiful plain,
But only see a barren landscape filled with human remains.
I turn away and run for a nearby house,
And inside I find a mother wielding a knife wearing a tarnished blouse.
The woman has an odd grin and a psychotic look.
She stands there with the blade over her family who’s lives she had took.
Eyes faded, with long hair greasy and gray,
Her crooked smile showed how much she loved to slay.
Her head twitches and she looks up to me.
Then moves forward wielding the blade in order to continue her spree.
I take a quick step backwards out of fear,
But she stumbles and begins to tear.
Sitting there in silence, she cries.
I continue to stare and notice her start to slowly arise.
Unaware of her intentions I took a few more steps away
Then suddenly she rushes at me still in disarray.
With only seconds to spare I manage to evade.
But she strikes again continuing her manic crusade.
Though ensnared, I counter attack,
And managed to stab her in the back.
As we both descend towards the ground,
I hear no voices, no thoughts, no sound.
I lay staring at the crazed woman as I tremble in pain,
Her eyes darken, her face melts, now I surely I’ve ended her reign.
The woman fades and I descend through the horrid scene,
I then reappear in the tropics, where the grass and trees are a brilliant harlequin green.
Looking around I see no disaster,
This dream has become lucid, and I the master.
I’ve conquered the mad and the strange,
And now this dream is mine to rearrange.
I look left and then above,
Only to realize I’m staring at a beautiful love.
I look in her eyes and she looks in mine.
And as we gaze I now know everything will be fine.
Now my heart has found its home and I can finally rest.
So that tomorrow when I see that murderous woman I can be at my best.
Superfluous
Quite unknowing of how to feel.
Discontent with my situation, wondering what is real.
I’m tired of these numb emotions.
The days seem to run together and move in fast motion.
Nothing slowing this solitary measure.
No one to hold close, no individual to treasure.
My eyes are heavy in deprivation.
An otiose being, I’ve become an abomination.
Control
Fighting for control you always win.
Yet you wont realize the true pain I’m in.
Left alone I’ll quietly fret.
But you'll go after me and I'm sure to regret.
Faking what I do.
Only so it wont effect my beautiful you.
I must go...
It must be so...
Just continue and I'll fade away.
Regardless of what you do or say.
Derailed
Turned away,
With less than little to say.
Just a corpse wallowing in despair.
As useless as tainted air.
I lose my soul and you hold out your hand.
But I leave it knowing I'm just as any other grain of sand.
A life derailed.
A woman who has long sailed.
The story stays.
And just replays.
Done with this harsh feeling of numb.
And being empty like a bottle of spiced rum.
I'll sit and die.
And on this bed I'll lie.
Faint
Dropped from high Above.
Comes the repetition of a love.
A love turned rotten,
A love long forgotten.
Farewell to the faint smiles and hugs.
Farewell to your feet on the tiles and rugs.
Good bye to your sweet face.
Which is left to haunt this lonely place.
Only a grin left in this man so weary.
But it fades as his life grows dreary.
Love brought to give as royal.
Love left to sit and spoil.
At a loss of heart and soul.
At a loss of part and role.
A faint sight of beauty.
Just left alone, tis' not my duty.
Anatomic Bliss
I wish I could smash these walls with my fist.
But surely I'd break this arthritis infested wrist.
I wish I could kick it down with my feet.
But indeed my ankles would shriek in defeat.
I'd love to knee it so I could fill this void.
But surely my meniscus would be destroyed.
I'd love to bash it in with my head.
But indeed, I'd go brain dead.
Fragments
With your Lies come my loves' Demise.
I am born once More,
Finally able to solemnly Sing,
Attempting to Soar with this wounded Wing.
It's time I Flee,
At last I can rid of this Tragedy.
The Day and the Morrow
Room for Calamity
And none for Felicity
No room for the likes of You
Only room for the open Blue
I have grown accustomed to This,
And your face I'm sure to Miss.
Nevertheless I am Done
It is finally time to Run
Filled with misery and Despair
I shall run till I hold no more Air
For you are the face of my Sadness
And for I am the chamber of my own Madness...
Now a ghost of what I once Was,
I've lost all Reason, I've lost all Cause.
I have no more to sacrifice for you my Love,
So I'll fly away, as nothing more but a Dove.
Sanctum
Back in my sanctum of blue....
Here with no thoughts, just faint images of me and you...
Always friends, but it will never be enough…
Only a permanent tease to make life more rough.
The memory of you crowds my mind as it does any other day,
And I’ll keep remembering what we once had forever and always…
Without you my heart will never recover…
For my love will burn longer than any other.
Soar
I’ll keep on gliding to who knows where...
And the gusts will keep me soaring through the air.
Never stopping, until I reach the mountains summit
I’ll keep going… unless I plummet.
Flying forever on the wind’s blusters…
Using every bit of effort I can possibly muster.
With happiness I will soar…
And make my way, forevermore.
Pathetic Void
Through the Darkness and space,
I can still see your beautiful face.
If only I weren't so weak...
I could find the happiness that I seek.
My heart yearns to be with you,
I had the chance, but not the courage too.
Now I fear I have truly lost this game,
But it's my fault, there’s no other to blame.
Paradise
Sometimes I dream of me and you,
We're in a perfect paradise, our friends are here too.
You're by my side and our fingers are laced,
Surrounded by everything we like and a house o' so perfectly placed.
I look in your eyes and know I've found the one
We smile at each other as we lay under the sun.
Some day we will be together again...
I'll hold a spot in my heart for you until then.
Emptiness
I'm withering away,
no one to talk to... nothing to say.
Losing chances...
Can't obtain romances...
Feeling half-alive,
Will happiness ever arrive?
Valentines
What a lonely V-day,
Feels more like a D-day.
Sitting alone in my room,
Peering through the window watching the flowers bloom.
So quiet, no one to make a sound,
So lonely, no other feet to hit the ground.
Feeling so worthless, like I have no value.
Unable to find love, no matter what I do.
Don’t want to be alone
Without you I feel so dead,
These images of you can’t seem to leave my head.
I can’t stand not being with you,
But really, there’s nothing I can do.
After all that time, we found each other…
But I’ve moved, and I’m afraid you’ve found another.
Losing hope
Can’t Stop thinking about you,
Unknowing of what to do…
This distance is driving me insane,
I feel so alone and in pain.
I’m losing my chance… I can tell,
Please, don’t give up, together we can escape this hell…
Missing You
Being away from you is a crime,
You’re on my mind all the time.
Where ever I am, whatever I do…
I can’t stop thinking about you.
Things used to be so great
But now that we are apart I fear I will be too late.
If only I lived next door,
Life would not be such a bore.
Finished
I’m through.
Wallowing over you.
I’ve wastmuch time.
Just so I could once again call you mine.
I’ve been trying so hard to get another chance.
But you never gave me one, I had no time to advance.
You really don’t realize how I really feel.
You toss me aside like a banana peel.
If you could really see.
You’d see how better off you‘d be with me.
Unforgettable
I've left you behind.
But I'm still trying to remove you from my mind.
It’s so hard to forget this.
I still remember our first kiss.
But this is something I have to do.
I have to forget about you.
Still Broken
I'm tired of crying.
Just want to stop these thoughts of dying.
I wish that it could all just go away,
so my mind could find happiness and just stay.
Every day I think of you,
and every day I become more blue.
I can only think of what it would be like if we had never met,
surely.. there would be nothing I would regret.
Stuck on you
I'm still in love with you,
I don't want anyone else new.
Your the only one for me,
but your blind… why can't you see?
We're still friends but I wish we could be more,
but it seems like you don't want me... you closed the door.
My feelings for you will go on forever,
I will keep them in my mind... because my heart has been severed.
Abominable
Can’t shake this never ending feeling of being alone...
Just want a person to be able to call my own...
I want to find someone to love, and to elope...
But it seems like I’ve got no chance and I’m losing hope...
I just can't get over the girl in my past...
If I ever do, will my next relationship last?
Charade
I'm sitting here quietly on my bed,
and I can’t seem to get you out of my head.
It doesn’t matter how hard I try,
Just the thought of you always makes me want cry…
Finally they started to go away…
but then we met again and you wanted to stay.
My feeble mind wanted to believe,
But I did not see what you had hidden up your sleeve.
Now my heart, damaged again, is starting to fade…
The love, the joy, the laughter, was it all just a charade?
I stare out into the distance,
Hoping that someday, I’ll get through your resistance.
In the clouds I can see your face,
It reminds me of a happier time, a happier place.
Oh love, how you fall,
Oh love, how you are oblivious to my call.
I try to save you before you disappear,
But to you, my voice is but a whisper in your ear.
Can’t you see how far you’ve gone?
You have completely lost sight of the dawn.
All I can do is continue to hope,
That you’ll finally climb up your disintegrating slope.
For now, I’ll say farewell,
For now, I’ll relinquish your spell.
I’ll stand alone, awaiting your true arrival,
But for now, I cannot view your downward spiral.
Estrange
In a land of disarray,
My voice is gone and there are no words to say.
The clouds are dark and the skies are red,
And on the ground, she lies motionless and dead.
In this land of disarray,
My eyes cannot breakaway,
A simple soul's imminent stray,
A complex heart's unpreventable betray.
The ground is barren, and the lakes are dry.
Every single thing has now gone awry.
The people are dead, their voices are silent.
There are no calm, there are no violent.
Only remains, of those once awake.
And their souls, that are left simply to take.
My love is gone, and my world forever gray,
But only in this land of morbid disarray.
The Death
I wish I could say that I'm okay.
But the memories continue to replay.
A soul, entirely out of place,
With the absence of your beautiful face.
All I want is your love,
Though clearly, it is not the will of those above.
I am afraid, for without you I have no cause,
I cannot live, I am set to pause.
Parish I would, rather than let you go,
However my hands are tied, therefore... it must be so.
Soulless Peace
This world of mine has turned to black,
For now, I have finally turned my back.
Finally I am free of her hold,
Finally now I may embrace the cold.
With my memories, I can survive.
For all happiness will never arrive.
This world of mine has turned to black.
Because finally, a soul I lack.
Sporadic
Nothing more than another fair-weather love.
One only determined by the clouds above.
Time can change and time can shift,
but nothing can change your emotional drift.
With you as fickle as a summer day,
I can only be left in disarray.
I know, it will only continue to rain,
And that all this time will be in vain.
Yet I cannot look away from the tarnished skies,
For it's taken my soul and I cannot avert my eyes...
Schizoid
This life has lost its spark,
And now I'm alone in the dark.
I sit with a crooked smile on my face,
For I've gone madly insane locked all alone in this place.
My mind has lost all control,
and now all I have is my tarnished soul.
Here I sit, and here I'll be,
Insanely hebephrenic for all eternity.
Foolish Paranoia
I am afraid.
For I sense I've been betrayed.
I cannot fathom how distraught I am,
and I feel like a fool whose life is forever damned.
My body hurts from this unorthodox matter,
my brain is dead and lies on the floor splattered.
I feel alone and lost in the night,
The darkness consumes me, and I'm left without a sight.
Sunrise, Sunset,
Grown so bored that I've once again gone insane,
And again I'm the one to blame.
I wish that I could just let her go,
But her love is the only one I truly know.
In reality I will forever be hers,
And It will be out of my control, regardless of whatever occurs.
I know that in my heart we should be as one,
But I'm afraid that our love is like the sun.
Wont you understand?
Here and gone,
Like the sunset and the dawn,
You come and go,
And you'll never really know.
I love you more than you can ever comprehend,
And by now I should know that it wont matter in the end.
I can't stop until you understand,
So please my love, breathe and take my hand.
Darkness
Blind forever,
For my optic nerve has been severed,
I cannot see anyone other than you,
For your face was the last thing I saw before I became so blue.
I'm left without my sight,
However, with you I can see a beautiful light.
I want to lose this pain.
So please, help me see again,
Insomniac
I cannot sleep on this starry night,
For I love you dear, and you've left my sight.
I wish I could explain to you how much I care,
But alas, my words would be to much for you to bare.
I am depressed in this state of sorrow,
And left to ponder the plans of the morrow.
I only hope that you come around,
Because my heart feels empty, and with you my love is found.
Dry Eyes
Here I sit out upon my roof,
Wondering if you care and trying to find proof.
It seems that you change so very fast,
And that I am very much stuck in the past.
I wish these eyes could shed a tear,
For every shred of sadness, self hate, and fear.
It is a shame that my eyes are unable to weep,
For every emotion, I am forced to keep.
Hatred
My soul is mad at this moronic mind,
Even if it is intelligent, sweet, and kind.
Every time I finally advance,
I throw it away and lose my chance.
I am so pissed at this kid,
Damned, by this naïveté I cannot rid.
This person that I love was just here.
But I've messed it up and she's already began to disappear.
Just a Rock
I feel like a stone,
Lost, dead, and all alone.
I can not move, for I have not the will.
So I'll stay here afraid, and forever still.
Without you there is no purpose.
So forevermore, I'll remain a part of this surface.
Grim Day
A birthday is nothing without you,
A dear woman, one which has no idea what to do.
This day has no meaning,
For you're absent, and it is rather demeaning.
With you by my side I feel like a king,
And with you away, I feel like nothing.
Please my love, come back to me,
And the world, I'll have you see.
No party, no people, no cake,
Not one person is welcome, because my heart you did take.
Life cannot be celebrated if you have no soul,
So please, return what you stole.
In my arms you will find peace,
And I promise love, all you troubles will forever cease.
I am here for you, so open your eyes.
If we are together, there will be no need for goodbyes.
Whenever you decide to come back.
The party I assure you, will not lack.
You again will find happiness here,
I promise my love, there is nothing to fear.
So take a seat and stay awhile,
And let me see that beautiful smile.
Maybe then you will realize how I feel,
Maybe then you will realize my love is real.
Finally the lights dim,
No one is there, and the scene is rather grim.
No cups nor plates have been moved out of place,
And there sit's the boy, whose love blew up in his face.
He sits there quietly, with a fixed stare.
He does not tear, nor does he go anywhere.
He just sits in the dark, still waiting for that love.
Even though she long ago flew away, like a dove.
Descent
I fall through the air slowly with a smile.
Plummeting through millions of clouds mile by mile.
The air rushes through my hair at high speeds,
And as I fall, I forget all my wants, hopes, and needs.
With a clear mind I can descend at peace.
But I learn to fly with the birds, planes, and geese.
And With these wings I fly on for days,
Visiting old friends and catchin' some rays.
But then my thoughts suddenly rush back.
And I continue to fall, because wings I now lack.
Absolution
Fear not dear, for I am here.
I'll stay, and wipe away all your tears.
I'll help you along the way,
Regardless of whatever you do or say.
I promise to stand by your side,
I'll be here, even if you leave, run, or hide.
Believe me I know how you feel.
But my love is not yours to steal.
One day we will surely find that place,
One that is filled with fun, happiness, and grace.
Fear not dear, for I am here.
I'll stay, and wipe away all your tears.
Eradication
Leaned against an old tree so calm,
I sit, sifting through the wood chips that lie on my palm.
The grass beside me shines a wonder green,
As I sit and observe, I realize I'm in a picturesque scene.
The clouds that the sky hold shadow phantasmagorically over me,
And into the distance I see the land blend together so beautifully.
Cutting through the tranquil silence the wind carries steel clanking and voices to my ears,
Those of the factories and business that have triumphed over the years.
I leave with a sigh and return in the future,
I see the ground ripped up, changed, and sutured.
Where I leaned. is now an overpriced teen clothing store,
And that old tree, so full of life, was now gone forevermore.
This once untouched environment has now been cleared of all wildlife,
And our mother earth has been carved up by society's knife.
With these factories and stores all our animals and plants have gone extinct,
But big business wont care of what our earth thinks.
These people care not for being green,
However they do enjoy the color, if you know what I mean.
Flawed
You've been hurt, this I can see,
And now you're afraid of what we could be.
I assure you my feelings for you are real,
I only want your love, your heart I promise not to steal.
Believe me dear, I only want what's best.
To make you happy, and give your sadness a perpetual rest.
That beautiful smile deserves to stay.
For all eternity, I never want to see it decay.
Lamia
A bite so tender and sweet.
One that nearly sweeps you off your feet.
With fangs as sharp as the stake you conceal,
So much pain, that you can hardly feel.
Within your eyes burns a flame,
One that is destined to destroy, burn, and maim.
A moment is taken for thought,
And in a flash you’ve pierced my heart with all you’ve got.
I fall to the ground and land at a kneel.
And say that even with death, your heart is mine to steal.
My love is yours, and your soul is mine.
Any path my dear, our hearts will always intertwine.
You collapse too and only cried,
And as the sun rises you lay by my side.
Over the tree tops the sunlight begins to emerge,
And as it shines on us our souls are purged.
A Feint Dream
Looking up I see the sky so dark.
And there, from the amethyst rain clouds fall the amber sparks.
I look down to see the orange grass in between my bare feet.
And realize the ground is cluttered with sugary treats.
I close my eyes and turn around, only to realize I’m all alone…
No friends, no games, no telephones…
Frowning, I look back up and see the sky has changed.
Its become misshapen, demented, and deranged.
I look out to the once beautiful plain,
But only see a barren landscape filled with human remains.
I turn away and run for a nearby house,
And inside I find a mother wielding a knife wearing a tarnished blouse.
The woman has an odd grin and a psychotic look.
She stands there with the blade over her family who’s lives she had took.
Eyes faded, with long hair greasy and gray,
Her crooked smile showed how much she loved to slay.
Her head twitches and she looks up to me.
Then moves forward wielding the blade in order to continue her spree.
I take a quick step backwards out of fear,
But she stumbles and begins to tear.
Sitting there in silence, she cries.
I continue to stare and notice her start to slowly arise.
Unaware of her intentions I took a few more steps away
Then suddenly she rushes at me still in disarray.
With only seconds to spare I manage to evade.
But she strikes again continuing her manic crusade.
Though ensnared, I counter attack,
And managed to stab her in the back.
As we both descend towards the ground,
I hear no voices, no thoughts, no sound.
I lay staring at the crazed woman as I tremble in pain,
Her eyes darken, her face melts, now I surely I’ve ended her reign.
The woman fades and I descend through the horrid scene,
I then reappear in the tropics, where the grass and trees are a brilliant harlequin green.
Looking around I see no disaster,
This dream has become lucid, and I the master.
I’ve conquered the mad and the strange,
And now this dream is mine to rearrange.
I look left and then above,
Only to realize I’m staring at a beautiful love.
I look in her eyes and she looks in mine.
And as we gaze I now know everything will be fine.
Now my heart has found its home and I can finally rest.
So that tomorrow when I see that murderous woman I can be at my best.
Superfluous
Quite unknowing of how to feel.
Discontent with my situation, wondering what is real.
I’m tired of these numb emotions.
The days seem to run together and move in fast motion.
Nothing slowing this solitary measure.
No one to hold close, no individual to treasure.
My eyes are heavy in deprivation.
An otiose being, I’ve become an abomination.
Control
Fighting for control you always win.
Yet you wont realize the true pain I’m in.
Left alone I’ll quietly fret.
But you'll go after me and I'm sure to regret.
Faking what I do.
Only so it wont effect my beautiful you.
I must go...
It must be so...
Just continue and I'll fade away.
Regardless of what you do or say.
Derailed
Turned away,
With less than little to say.
Just a corpse wallowing in despair.
As useless as tainted air.
I lose my soul and you hold out your hand.
But I leave it knowing I'm just as any other grain of sand.
A life derailed.
A woman who has long sailed.
The story stays.
And just replays.
Done with this harsh feeling of numb.
And being empty like a bottle of spiced rum.
I'll sit and die.
And on this bed I'll lie.
Faint
Dropped from high Above.
Comes the repetition of a love.
A love turned rotten,
A love long forgotten.
Farewell to the faint smiles and hugs.
Farewell to your feet on the tiles and rugs.
Good bye to your sweet face.
Which is left to haunt this lonely place.
Only a grin left in this man so weary.
But it fades as his life grows dreary.
Love brought to give as royal.
Love left to sit and spoil.
At a loss of heart and soul.
At a loss of part and role.
A faint sight of beauty.
Just left alone, tis' not my duty.
Anatomic Bliss
I wish I could smash these walls with my fist.
But surely I'd break this arthritis infested wrist.
I wish I could kick it down with my feet.
But indeed my ankles would shriek in defeat.
I'd love to knee it so I could fill this void.
But surely my meniscus would be destroyed.
I'd love to bash it in with my head.
But indeed, I'd go brain dead.
Fragments
With your Lies come my loves' Demise.
I am born once More,
Finally able to solemnly Sing,
Attempting to Soar with this wounded Wing.
It's time I Flee,
At last I can rid of this Tragedy.
The Day and the Morrow
Room for Calamity
And none for Felicity
No room for the likes of You
Only room for the open Blue
I have grown accustomed to This,
And your face I'm sure to Miss.
Nevertheless I am Done
It is finally time to Run
Filled with misery and Despair
I shall run till I hold no more Air
For you are the face of my Sadness
And for I am the chamber of my own Madness...
Now a ghost of what I once Was,
I've lost all Reason, I've lost all Cause.
I have no more to sacrifice for you my Love,
So I'll fly away, as nothing more but a Dove.
Sanctum
Back in my sanctum of blue....
Here with no thoughts, just faint images of me and you...
Always friends, but it will never be enough…
Only a permanent tease to make life more rough.
The memory of you crowds my mind as it does any other day,
And I’ll keep remembering what we once had forever and always…
Without you my heart will never recover…
For my love will burn longer than any other.
Soar
I’ll keep on gliding to who knows where...
And the gusts will keep me soaring through the air.
Never stopping, until I reach the mountains summit
I’ll keep going… unless I plummet.
Flying forever on the wind’s blusters…
Using every bit of effort I can possibly muster.
With happiness I will soar…
And make my way, forevermore.
Pathetic Void
Through the Darkness and space,
I can still see your beautiful face.
If only I weren't so weak...
I could find the happiness that I seek.
My heart yearns to be with you,
I had the chance, but not the courage too.
Now I fear I have truly lost this game,
But it's my fault, there’s no other to blame.
Paradise
Sometimes I dream of me and you,
We're in a perfect paradise, our friends are here too.
You're by my side and our fingers are laced,
Surrounded by everything we like and a house o' so perfectly placed.
I look in your eyes and know I've found the one
We smile at each other as we lay under the sun.
Some day we will be together again...
I'll hold a spot in my heart for you until then.
Emptiness
I'm withering away,
no one to talk to... nothing to say.
Losing chances...
Can't obtain romances...
Feeling half-alive,
Will happiness ever arrive?
Valentines
What a lonely V-day,
Feels more like a D-day.
Sitting alone in my room,
Peering through the window watching the flowers bloom.
So quiet, no one to make a sound,
So lonely, no other feet to hit the ground.
Feeling so worthless, like I have no value.
Unable to find love, no matter what I do.
Don’t want to be alone
Without you I feel so dead,
These images of you can’t seem to leave my head.
I can’t stand not being with you,
But really, there’s nothing I can do.
After all that time, we found each other…
But I’ve moved, and I’m afraid you’ve found another.
Losing hope
Can’t Stop thinking about you,
Unknowing of what to do…
This distance is driving me insane,
I feel so alone and in pain.
I’m losing my chance… I can tell,
Please, don’t give up, together we can escape this hell…
Missing You
Being away from you is a crime,
You’re on my mind all the time.
Where ever I am, whatever I do…
I can’t stop thinking about you.
Things used to be so great
But now that we are apart I fear I will be too late.
If only I lived next door,
Life would not be such a bore.
Finished
I’m through.
Wallowing over you.
I’ve wastmuch time.
Just so I could once again call you mine.
I’ve been trying so hard to get another chance.
But you never gave me one, I had no time to advance.
You really don’t realize how I really feel.
You toss me aside like a banana peel.
If you could really see.
You’d see how better off you‘d be with me.
Unforgettable
I've left you behind.
But I'm still trying to remove you from my mind.
It’s so hard to forget this.
I still remember our first kiss.
But this is something I have to do.
I have to forget about you.
Still Broken
I'm tired of crying.
Just want to stop these thoughts of dying.
I wish that it could all just go away,
so my mind could find happiness and just stay.
Every day I think of you,
and every day I become more blue.
I can only think of what it would be like if we had never met,
surely.. there would be nothing I would regret.
Stuck on you
I'm still in love with you,
I don't want anyone else new.
Your the only one for me,
but your blind… why can't you see?
We're still friends but I wish we could be more,
but it seems like you don't want me... you closed the door.
My feelings for you will go on forever,
I will keep them in my mind... because my heart has been severed.
Abominable
Can’t shake this never ending feeling of being alone...
Just want a person to be able to call my own...
I want to find someone to love, and to elope...
But it seems like I’ve got no chance and I’m losing hope...
I just can't get over the girl in my past...
If I ever do, will my next relationship last?
Charade
I'm sitting here quietly on my bed,
and I can’t seem to get you out of my head.
It doesn’t matter how hard I try,
Just the thought of you always makes me want cry…
Finally they started to go away…
but then we met again and you wanted to stay.
My feeble mind wanted to believe,
But I did not see what you had hidden up your sleeve.
Now my heart, damaged again, is starting to fade…
The love, the joy, the laughter, was it all just a charade?